after 10 years

Today: I feel good^^^^ :))))))))

thanks you :)

       

I was about to cry today...
But..
thanks YOU :)

l am lovin it :)

I have to admit.. I had a kind of withdrawing symptoms when I am leaving surgical.. whatever it is..the first love is the one that we remember the most.. so I can't imagine  myself surviving in medical.. but some how, within this 1 week of tagging..all I can say is.. I am lovin it:) seriously serious:) wish me luck!!!!

 Within this week, two of my new chinese friends said to me that they like to work with me... I don' t know why they said that, in fact they do help me a lots.. but still I like to take it as a compliment. .and I do appreciate them for giving me hope in this new phase of life..

tadada... i am lovin it :)

every exit is an entry

Seriously..gonna miss my awesome surgical teamT_____T
THANKS FOR THE UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES...

Manis wajahmu kulihat disana :)

Demam

Bila jadi houseman ni, demam pun rasa bersalah.Tapi demam tu datang juga tanpa rasa bersalah, nak buat lagu mana kan....

Kadang-kadang, saya sedar yang saya dalam beberapa perkara tidak meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya.. zalim ke macam tu? mungkin, ya, mungkin jugak tidak.. cumanya, pada saat perkara tersebut terjadi saya tidak sedar sampaila tak lama kemudian terdetik dalam hati, kenapala aku buat macam tu, kenapala, kenapala..tapi dah buat kan... how i wish i can roll back time and be more ****.....

I want to move on now... despite all my weakness , my inabilities, my limits, my discouragement , lack of confident, i believe in myself that i can go through this. i really love doing this! its actually my actual feeling but its deteriorating over time. how come i'am weakening so fast?

till then.. 

Curhat

I was mumbling alone "mampuih aku!" when suddenly  out of nowhere, my little brother said... "mampuih apa, tu duk  hidup lagi"

huhu. i smiled. big big smile appear on my face....

Sooo true, 
after all, i am still alive...
what doesn't kill me make me stronger..

how i wish i have that simple and straight forward mind. Too much thinking somehow is bad until it is proven otherwise..

Within this one month plus plus, i do learn  lots of things. New things to be exact. Its not easy somehow and i can't believe how fast time fly but  i am still left behind. 

Wuuu, nak nangis..

But after all i do meet some good members and MO , and they do help me a lot through this process... 

I do receive so many comments , positive and negative feedback and some good advice.. Thanks peoples! Really appreciate it!

 tips from my friend, also senior HO, shafikah
" Jangan takut buat salah" . 

My other friend , Kingston remind me on how i have to believe in my judgement.

and the latest one, azrul, another senior HO, advice me to be more confident... 

huuu..

After a long discussion with my mum, i was diagnosed to have low self esteem. It may be true or may not be true. The truth is i am still not ready to face the world as much as they want me to. I need passion. I need strong desire to overcome this. Pray for me ok... :)

To whom it may concern, thank you, for being with me especially during this period of time. May Allah grant you Hassanah fidduniya wal akhirah:)