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2 seconds memories

do you know that the goldfish only have 2 seconds memories....

 i don't know either......but pasta taught me that...:)

 oh, sometimes i wonder how does it feel to have only two seconds in your memory.... :),

 sometimes, i wonder who i am if  i am not myself..

 sometimes, i wonder where can i go, if i am not staying in this place..

 i wonder why i don't have the courage to do something beyond my expectation..

 i wonder why i like to fight for mY life? why don't i just let it to just flow

 all i want to do right now is to sink myself in the water and enjoy the coolness

 i want to float myself at a nice, quite lake with a nice view at night, in dark, watching upon the star, alone

 all i want right now is not to be found...

 i want to be free, i want to free my mind, i want to let go, back off and i want to grow up differently...

 let me be
p/s: “In my thoughts, I’ve packed my bags more than a hundred times.”-cinderella sisters
p/s 2: thanks :)

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