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I was mumbling alone "mampuih aku!" when suddenly  out of nowhere, my little brother said... "mampuih apa, tu duk  hidup lagi"

 huhu. i smiled. big big smile appear on my face....

 Sooo true, 
after all, i am still alive...
what doesn't kill me make me stronger..

 how i wish i have that simple and straight forward mind. Too much thinking somehow is bad until it is proven otherwise..

 Within this one month plus plus, i do learn  lots of things. New things to be exact. Its not easy somehow and i can't believe how fast time fly but  i am still left behind. 

 Wuuu, nak nangis..

 But after all i do meet some good members and MO , and they do help me a lot through this process... 

 I do receive so many comments , positive and negative feedback and some good advice.. Thanks peoples! Really appreciate it!

  tips from my friend, also senior HO, shafikah
" Jangan takut buat salah" . 

 My other friend , Kingston remind me on how i have to believe in my judgement.

 and the latest one, azrul, another senior HO, advice me to be more confident... 

 huuu..

 After a long discussion with my mum, i was diagnosed to have low self esteem. It may be true or may not be true. The truth is i am still not ready to face the world as much as they want me to. I need passion. I need strong desire to overcome this. Pray for me ok... :)

 To whom it may concern, thank you, for being with me especially during this period of time. May Allah grant you Hassanah fidduniya wal akhirah:)

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