Hari Hari

The Consultant Specialist in my hospital once apologize to me for saying a not-so-good words towards me. "Maaf ya dik, saya tidak sepatutnya ngomong (bercakap) begitu. Saya lagi pusing tadi, banyak urusan. Bila saat-saat begitu perangai buruk akan keluar. Saya minta maaf ya" I was like.. surprise at the moment he said that, and actually MORE surprised of what he said before. But i don't take it in my heart although if he actually does meant it, it doesn't matter. I already know it .haha. Actually, there's a time in life, we'll be the 'bad' man. Although we want it or not, at least, once in a while we used to be lost from who we used to be. At the time, we are not our own self, and nobody seems to know us at the time. There are time when everything seem to be unbearable and we can't afford to do anything and nobody seem to understand what we're going through. And its the time where i really miss you the most:) MISSING YOU I am not a very good ...

HAHA: try test ni tadi dekat facebook. Walaupun tau tak betul, paling-paling pun, "its really comforting me:) ". I do have lots of great ideas, but to deliver them are my biggest difficulty for me to overcome. Should i take it as a challange? Yes, I do. Today i really had a good talk with few lovely peoples. Despite of my sleepiness of the so called "post oncall syndrome", i do remember each word they said to me. Meanwhile, as i am awake, and with some reflection, those words really haunting me. As far i could remember, i am a bit numb when something big happen suddenly. It just that, when something happen beyond my expectation, i really don't know how to react, how i feel,what the right thing to say,what should i do. Especially when it invove myself or peoples close to my heart. DUMB or NUMB? whatever. I remember the early days when i was studying in the boarding school during my secondary school years, my batchmate keep on asking me how do i feel to be apart ...

Minggu pertama 2012 = minggu ke 2 di obgyn ;agak hectic.huhuhu. Minggu kedua obgyn (OnG)--> stase di hospital daerah (Majalaya) tempat yg kondusif untuk belajar, makan 3 kali per hari cukup gizi, dokter residen yang sangat baik dan rajin berkongsi, jaga yang menyenangkan, wifi laju,stase poliklinik, ruang bersalin, ruang nifas, dan kamar operasi yang menyenagkan, Konsulen yang memberi semua peluang,--> teman jatuh sakit, keadaan agak mencemaskan, pulang, dirawat di hospital=susp denggi, yang lain serangan gatal-gatal,--> partus, plasenta, episiotomi, currate, status ruangan, status kuning, follow up, bimbingan--> balik sabtu jam 4-->sampai jam 5.30, jam 6: kena kumpul nota buat kompre--> internet down-->baju 1 minggu belumm basuh-->ampaian penuh-->nak download notes kawan-kawan: internet down, handphone missplace-->tertido-->>bangun-->JAGA ahad pagi (7am-7pm)-->lawat kawan sakit-->balik jaga--> lawat kawan (keluarga datang)--> balik ru...